A bit of poetry...
- gracetheodoly
- Aug 22, 2020
- 2 min read
Had some fun with a rendition of how I was diagnosed with attention deficit hyperactivity disorder. Being diagnosed with a learning disability can be hard, it can feel as if you need to redifine yourself; as if you aren't the same person you thought you were before the diagnoses. I was at first very ashamed of my diagnosis, being someone who has devoted much time to mental cultivation, I felt my quality had suddenly been reduced. It didn't help that I was reading Mill at the time! The word 'disorder' is a strong one, too strong for a condition that is by no means a disease. In fact, sometimes I think it's more of a secret superpower than an obstacle. It is with that in mind, that I wrote this poem.
I pottered in and sat promptly down,
Sinking my back into the linen chair.
The room had a character of its own,
The walls exuding a disgruntled air.
As I waited, I felt a strange sensation
As if a child in the naughty corner.
The doctor swept in and I thought I heard
A displeased grunt or murmur.
He spoke a string of muffled terms,
And pointed to a strange computer.
I followed his trail with a worried shuffle,
Telling myself to listen in future.
The murky screen lit up and out of it
Flashed dancing shapes of red and blue.
I saw a triangle wink at me,
As if there were something it knew.
A blue circle turned into a square,
Sprouting red legs and red eyes too.
A super-shape with a venomous glare,
A monstrosity altogether new.
Apparently twenty minutes had passed,
But the shape still smothered my eyes.
All I could see was that terrible thing,
With vertices miles high.
“Right.” The doctor said, pursing his lips,
And shifting the screen towards his face.
A multitude of graphs popped up at once,
With dots and lines all over the place.
He pointed to a diagram at the top,
Spots smothering it like some disease.
In all fairness I merely nodded back,
For it didn’t look like much to me.
He spoke “you have-”
My mouth gaped open; the words buzzed in my head.
I must have looked ridiculous.
“attention what?” I said.
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